Chapter 37– It Happens Like The Leaves Fall Off Trees (Jacquie’s POV)

I wake up and hold my head, A minor headache that’s all, hate to think what Gerard has. I get up and walk into the living room.

“What time did you get home?” Kerrie asks happily.
“Eh not late” I say.
“Okay” Kerrie replies.
“You still a hater of breakfast?” Jimmy asks from the kitchen
“For one I didn’t hate breakfast and two I occasionally eat breakfast and today happens to be a day I don’t feel like it,” I say.
“Okay” he says “How about you cutie pie?”
“You know I hate that name” Kerrie says “But yes please”
She gets up and joins Jimmy in the kitchen.
“Umm Kerrie I need to do some washing” I say.
“Sure, know how to use a crappy machine?” she asks.
“Maybe” I reply.
“Nah I’ll do it,” she says walking back into the living room.
“Well its got … vomit on it” I say awkwardly.
“Yours or someone else’s?” she asks rasing and eyebrow.
“Someone else’s” I reply.
“What did you do?” she jokes.
“Not much” I say with laugh “They saw my face and puke time”
“Sure” she says, “Give us it”
I walk into my room and get the plastic bag with the clothes and give it to her.
“Oh and can you wash Ray’s … dressing gown” I say.
“Why do you have Ray’s dressing gown?” she asks.
“Well I wasn’t gonna wear puke on me for the night” I say.
“Good point” she says.
I go get it and give it to her.
“Thanks” I say.
“No problem” She says leaving the room.
I go back in my room and change into some blue skinny leg jeans and a smashing pumpkins shirt. I put on my shoes and find some perfume and put it on, I didn’t feel like a shower at the moment. I walk back into the living room.
“You off to see your friends?” Jimmy says sitting eating a piece of toast.
“Umm what time is it?” I ask.
“10 something” he replies.
“What the? Why are you having toast now?” I ask.
“Cause I feel like it” he says with a smile full of crumbs.
“Okay well yeah I will be seeing my friends,” I say.
“Okay have fun,” he says.
I walk out the house.

I walk to Ray’s quickly and knock on the door.
Ray opens the door.
“Heya” he says.
“Hi” I reply.
“So you here for Gerard?” he asks.
“You and Gerard” I say.
“Well he is still crashed” Ray says.
“Oh okay, I’ll wake him” I say.
Ray lets me in.
“He kinda threw up again but thank god there was a bowl” Ray says.
“Yeah” I say.
I walk to the couch and find Gerard lying on the couch with his face facing the ceiling.
“Oh sleeping beauty” I call out.
He snorts but continues sleeping.
I look at Ray and laugh.
I walk over to Gerard and sit on his stomach, I look at him to see if he wakes up.
“God he fricken sleeps” I yell.
“Yes he does” Ray says.
“Hey look its Billy Corgan from Smashing Pumpkins” I yell.
Still no reply or movement.
I grab his nose he begins gasping for air and snorting so I let go.
“Normally that works” I say.
Ray shrugs then looks as if he has and idea and an evil smile appears on his face.
“Hey look Jacquie’s naked,” he yells.
Gerard jumps up.
Ray cracks up laughing.
“Am I more special naked then Billy Corgan?” I ask Gerard.
Gerard begins to go a little red.
“Never mind” I say getting off of him “So how you feeling?”
“Like shit” he says, “I need a couple and I will be fine”
“No more” I yell and cover my mouth.
Gerard smiles.
“Hey you made me somewhat drunk too, I had a headache when I woke up” I say.
“Like you said yesterday you can’t control me,” Gerard says with a smirk.
I roll my eyes and walk into Ray’s kitchen I get a glass of water and bring it out to Gerard.
“Water?” he questions.
“Yes drink it or I will throw it on you” I say.
“Okay Geez” he says and drinks it and passes me the glass again.
“So what are we doing today?” I ask.
“We?” Gerard asks.
“Yes we” I say.
“I gotta go to school soon” Ray says, “My first class of the day starts soon”
“Okay” I reply “Then you must have class soon to Mr Way”
“No I don’t” he says, “I told you I quitted”
“Sure” I say, “Well you’re going today anyways”
“God leave me alone alright not today maybe next week,” Gerard says.
“You're so stubborn” I say.
“So are you” Gerard says.
“GAHH” I say turning away from him.
“I don’t believe that’s a word Miss Valkyrie I think you should go to school,” Gerard says.
“Shut up” I say and walk into the kitchen putting the glass in the sink.
Arms circle my waist.
“You have got to stop doing that,” I say pulling free of Gerard’s grip and walking off.
“Bye Ray” I say and walk out the front door.


(Gerard’s POV)
“Bye Ray” Jacquie says and I hear the front door close.
“What did you do?” Ray says walking into the kitchen.
“Nothing” I say.
“Tell Me,” He questions me further.
“Doesn’t matter” I reply “Anyways thanks for letting me stay, I’m outta here”
“Welcome but serious what did you do to her?” Ray asks
“Hugged her” I say and make my way for the front door.
“How?” he asks following me.
“None of your business” I say and open the door and leave.

I walk to my house and try to open the door but it won’t budge I knock and no one answers.
“Fucken mum” I say to myself “Gone out and left the place locked”
What the hell was I gonna do for the next … Why do I even bother asking I know the answer.
I make my way to the abandoned house.
I go inside and get a bottle of beer and take the cap off and I take a sip Beer had lost its taste to me, so bland and boring but that didn’t matter to me as long as I was out for the count by lunch. I walk to where I had thrown the bottles of paint at the wall. I touch it to see if its wet and I am left with red and black paint on my fingers I wipe my fingers across the dry part of the walk to get rid of most the paint from them. I drink some more of my beer and make my way to the bedroom and I place the beer on the side table. I look at the mirror on the wall, I looked worse than usual today with my eyes red, hair messed up and dried vomit on my shirt I hear footsteps shuffle from a distance and then they start tapping on the timber floors in the front room. Someone was here but who? I quickly pick up my drink and finish it. I peer down the hallway and see a figure move across the room and then another.
“Hey look at this shit,” A guy says.
“Fucken emo’s” Another guy says.
Then the sound of spray cans hissing filled the house.

A good hour has past and finally the hissing had stopped.
“Damn we ran out,” A voice says.
“Eh don’t matter” Another voice says.
“Lets check around” The 1st voice says.
“Fuck it all your gonna find here is razor blades and old alcohol bottle and possibly a dead emo” the other voice says and laughs.
“Fine lets go” a voice says and then the guys had left.
I didn’t want to see what had happened to my work, it must have been ruined. I may as well check the damage, but 1st I was gonna need another beer I get another beer and pop the top and take a mouthful and swallow I walk into the front room and look around. All drawings and paintings had been scribbled on in various colours of spray paint and the discarded spray cans spread out everywhere. There must be over 20 cans But in yellow fluorescent spray paint on top of all the destruction the words FUCK OFF EMO and on the other side EMO’S SUCK were in big bold writing. How could someone do this? All that work and effort I had put into it… ruined … destroyed … wrecked. I finish my beer and throw out of the window, it hit the ground with a smash. I better start cleaning, I go into the cupboard and pull out a folded blanket, I unfold it and place it in the middle of the front room I place the spray cans on it and all the shards of glass from bottles I had smashed and then just bottles that were around the room from me. When I had finished I tied the ends of the blanket into a knot so that it contained all the glass, bottles and cans. I threw the blanket out of the door and then kicked it under a bush outside. I walk back into the house and look at the walls again I was gonna need to get a hell of a lot of paint to get rid of all of that. But what colour? Black? Red? Purple? Dark Blue? I don’t know.
“Fuck I’ll do this later” I yell.
I walk out of the house and walk to mine.

I knock on the door because it is still locked.
Mum answers.
“Oh you're home now are you?” She says angrily.
“I was at a friends,” I say trying to push past but she won’t let me.
“You smell of alcohol, you look a mess, what happened?” she asks.
“I had a couple of drinks and crashed at a friends,” I say.
“How many?” she asks angrier.
“I don’t know does it matter, I’m alive” I say.
“Sometimes I doubt that” she mumbles and walks away.
I walk into the house and close the door.
“Are you going to school today?” She yells from her room.
“Next week mum” I yell back at her.
“You say that every time I ask,” she yells back.
“Whatever” I say and walk into my room I change clothes get my wallet and check how much I have.
“$50 oh yeah fucken rich” I say sarcastically to myself.
I put my wallet in my back pocket and I walk to the front door.
“You leaving again?” My mum asks.
“I’m getting some paint,” I say.
“What for?” She asks.
“None of your business” I reply opening the door.
“You know what don’t even come back you hardly live here anymore” Mum yells at me.
“Mum I’m just getting some fucking paint” I reply “I will be back”
“Sure for two minutes and then you're gone” she says.
“I wonder why I even do come back,” I say under my breath.
“What did you say?” She asks.
“I WONDER WHY I FUCKEN COME BACK YOU DEAF BITCH” I yell at her.
“GET THE FUCK OUTTA MY HOUSE YOU UNGREATFUL BASTARD” she yells at me.
“Oh fuck up” I say walking out of the door and slamming it in her face.
I walk down the street to the shops.

I go into a hardware shop and go into the paint section. Black … Red … Purple … Dark Blue … What to choose. I could paint it all red and then use black for silhouettes of stuff or maybe Dark blue for the illusion of night and use light yellows and white to do like stars and shit. Someone taps me on the shoulder and I turn around.
“What the fuck do you want?” I say.
It’s Jacquie. What the fuck is she doing here?
“Fine I’ll go,” She says turning away.
“Sorry didn’t know it was you” I say grabbing her by the shoulder.
“Okay” she says, “What happened to the house?”
“My house?” I ask, “What the fuck did my mum do?”
“Your mum?” She says surprised “She wrote Fuck off emo and that shit?”
“Oh you mean my place” I say “ Some guys spray painted the place and fucked it up bad, that’s why I’m here getting paint, I’m gonna start over again”
“Oh” she says.
“How did you find me?” I ask.
“Well I went to your place and you weren’t there so I thought your mum’s and she told me to not talk about him except she rephrased it differently and then I came here and I saw you through the front window” She says.
“Okay and why were you looking for me?” I ask.
“Cause” She says.
“Why?” I ask.
“I felt bad you did nothing wrong and I yelled at you” She says.
“But I did” I say.
“No you didn’t,” she says.
“I did, I shouldn’t of hugged you like I did, I’m just used to hugging you like that” I say “And I especially can’t now you have a boyfriend”
“Never mind it now, just try not to” She says with a smile.
“Okay sure” I say.
“So what paint are you looking for?” She asks.
“I don’t know” I reply, “I’m not sure what to do”
She shrugs.
“I was thinking of painting it all red and then using black for silhouettes of stuff or doing like a night scene thing” I say.
“Silhouettes are more fun,” She says with a smile.
“Okay silhouettes it is” I say and get a can of red paint and a can of black paint.
“You need brushes too right?” She asks.
“A big brush yeah I got heaps of little ones, so yeah” I reply.
She picks up two big brushes.
“I only need one,” I say.
“We need two,” She says.
“You're gonna help?” I ask surprised.
“Hell yeah” she says.
We walk to the counter and we place the items on the counter.
The clerk checks the prices.
“That is $60,” He says.
Shit I only got $50.
“Here ya go” Jacquie says giving him money.
The clerk takes it off her and puts it in the cash register He gets out a plastic bag and puts the brushes in it and a receipt.
I pick up the paint cans and she takes the brushes.
We walk out the shop and make our way back down back to my place.
“Thanks for paying” I say.
“No problem” She says with a smile.
We are out the front of my place and I place the cans on the ground. I try to open the door and its locked.
I knock on the door and mum answers it.
“What?” she asks.
“Umm I live here” I say.
“Not for long” she says passing me a bag and then another.
“You’re kicking me out?” I ask.
“Yes” she replies “You treat me like shit”
“Oh shut up you treat me just the same,” I say pushing her out the way.
“Don’t push me,” she says pushing me so I slam against the wall I fall to the ground.
“Fuck off” I say getting to my feet.
I walk into my room and most of stuff is missing.
“Did you pack everything?” I ask her.
“Yeah there is 4 bags,” she says.
“Where’s my shitty laptop Gayson gave me?” I ask.
“It was Mason and it’s not yours,” she says.
“It fucken is” I say.
I open the cupboard and everything is gone except the laptop and its bag.
“Great hiding place” I say and take it out but stop “I’m not leaving”
“Why not?” She asks walking into my room “My house my rules”
“I don’t care I live here” I say.
“Fucken get out,” she says pushing me through the door and I ram into the wall but don’t fall “Just fucken go”
“No” I reply.
She grabs me by my arm and I push her off.
“GET OUT” She screams.
I take her advice this time and walk outside.
She kicks my stuff out the door and slams the door.
“Great” I say picking up my bags of stuff while still holding my laptop.
“What happened?” Jacquie asks me.
“My mother” I say angrily.
Jacquie picks up the paint cans.
“Thanks” I say.
She smiles but it drops when she sees mum at the window.
“Get the fuck off my property” my mum yells.
“What’s up with her?” Jacquie asks concerned.
“She probably had some drug that fucked her mood,” I say.
We begin walking to my actual place, well for now it’s my house.
We walk inside to find more shit on the walls and more cans of spray paint.
“FOR FUCKS SAKE CAN’T ANYTHING GO MY WAY?” I yell.
I put my bags on the ground and take the cans of paint away from Jacquie. I open up the black paint can and splatter it over all the writing.
“Gerard we can fix it, it’s fine” Jacquie says.
I throw the can at the wall and it puts a hole in the wall. I get the red paint can and open it and I begin doing the same as the black. I throw the can down the hallway. I run down the hallway and kick it and it flies into the bedroom. I go to where I store my alcohol and there is only one bottle left.
“NOW THEY STEAL MY STASH” I yell getting the last bottle and go into my bedroom to find two guys and two girls all teenagers and all semi-naked and trying to put on there clothes as quickly as possible.
“AND YOU COME IN HERE AND HAVE SEX” I yell.
I throw the bottle across the room and it smashes on the wall.
“FUCKEN HELL” I yell and walk down the hallway “TAKE THE FUCKEN PLACE IT’S NOT LIKE I HAVE A PLACE TO LIVE”
I walk out the front door leaving Jacquie behind.
“Gerard what the fuck is up?” she yells to me.
I continue walking.