Chapter 19 – THE EVE AND PARTY **6 days later (tomorrow I leave for Australia {in story})** (Jacquie's POV)

9pm…(Party at Matt’s {everyone’s there except parents and relatives etc.)
“Oh my god thanks for the party guys,” I say to everyone.
“Welcome” Matt says.
“Bring on the alcohol” Gerard yells.
“Hell Yeah” I yell.
Gerard pours drinks for everyone.Frankie brings out his guitar from Matt’s room.
“Here’s a song I’m making up on the spot” he says.
♪♫♪“Jacquie is awesome, but she is leaving so we are having a party and a Jacquie party never stops”♪♫♪ he says jokingly.
“Great song lets get it published,” I say
♪♫♪“Jacquie I haven’t finished, Whoa she is awesome and this party is awesome so something awesome plus something awesome equals…EXTREME AWESOMENESS” ♪♫♪ he continues.
“Okay stop you suck at making songs on the spot” Matt says.
“Like to see you do better” Frankie says.
“Okay” he says.
He walks over to the stereo. And looks though CD’s he picks one out looks at it and puts it on and then changes it to a track.
I immediately know the song and who its by. Sweet Child O’ Mine by Guns and Roses. Why the hell this song?
♪♫♪“She's got a smile that it seems to me
Reminds me of so many memories
Where everything
Was as fresh as the bright blue sky
Now and then when I see her face
She takes me away to that happy place
And if I stared too long
I'd probably have a party and get high

Whoa Jacquie’s so fine
Whoa oh oh oh Jacquie’s so fine

She's got eyes of the bluest skies
As if they thought of rain
I love to look into those eyes
And see an ounce of fame
Her hair reminds me of a awesome place
Where as a child I'd hide
And pray for the thunder
And the rain
To quietly come right by

Whoa Jacquie’s so fine
Whoa oh oh oh Jacquie’s so fine

Where do we go
Where do we go now
Where do we go
Jacquie’s so fine” ♪♫♪ he sings.

He walks over and turns off the stereo.
“That was … coolish” I reply.
“You win this time,” Frankie says. And puts his guitar back into Matt’s.
We all refill our drinks including Matt who skulled his when he finished singing.

11pm…
Yet again Matt is drunk on yet another party night. But this time he is more controlled. But someone has joined him. But who you may ask? Ray? No. Frankie? No. Mikey? Getting warmer. Gerard? Yes surprisingly. I didn’t think he was the type to get drunk. You think you know a person and then they surprise you.
“Gerard why are you awesome?” Matt asks drunkenly.
“I dunno why?” Gerard replies.
“Cause you know me” Matt says.
The two burst into laughter.
“I normally laugh at anything and everything but I don’t see how that was funny,” I say.
“You wouldn’t know unless you’re drunk,” Ray says.
“Oh I see alcohol madness” I say with a giggle.
“More like alcohol stupidness” he says.
We both laugh.
“Matt honey stop it” Paula says to Matt telling him to stop drinking.
“But its fun” he slurs.
“If I finish your drink will you stop?” she asks.
“Fine” he replies handing her his drink.
She drinks it and takes the glass to the kitchen.
“Have you ever seen Gerard drunk before?” I ask Ray.
“Yeah, it can be funny but sometimes it can be quite… tragic” he says.
“Oh what do you mean tragic?” I ask.
“Umm nothing” he says quickly.
“Ray” I say
“Well he can be hard to control and make a fool of himself,” he says regretting the words coming out of his mouth “Umm when he’s sober don’t tell him I said that okay, In fact forget what I just said”.
He walks over to Lucy and gives her a cuddle. She cuddles him back. I look at Matt trying to dance. I giggle at the sight.
“You know you have a very cute laugh” I turn and see Gerard right behind me.
“No I don’t,” I say blushing.
“You do,” He says.
I smile and blush more.
“And the cutest smile” he says.
“Stop it your drunk you don’t mean it” I say.
“I do mean it,” he says.
“Nah” I say.
“You’re the most prettiest girl I’ve ever met,” he says.
“Not true” I say.
Matt comes over to us and listens in on the conversation.
“And I’ve loved you ever since the day I met you” Gerard says.
“I don’t believe you, you’re drunk,” I say.
“Nope it’s all true he LOVES you” Matt says.
“No he doesn’t,” I say starting to become convinced maybe he does.
“FINE DON’T BELIEVE HIM BUT ITS TRUE, ANYWAYS LETS SEE IF I CAN SKATEBOARD” Matt yells.
And then tries running outside tripping over then getting up and going outside finally.
“Matt you're gonna hurt yourself” Paula yells running after him.
We all walk after them.
“Matt’s so gonna stack” Mikey says to Frankie.
Frankie laughs.
We watch Matt trying to get on the skateboard. It’s really amusing because he keeps missing the board. He thinks he is on the board and tries to push himself along. We all start laughing. Matt finally realizes he is not on the board and tries to get on it again. This time he succeeds for about 3 seconds and then falls over. Paula goes up to him and helps him up. We all sit on the driveway. Gerard sits right next to me. I look at him and he is looking at me.
“Why are you looking at me?” I ask.
“You look so beautiful in the moonlight,” he says.
“Stop it” I reply.
“OOOOO GERARD’S IN LOVE” Mikey yells.
“Damn straight” he says.
I feel myself starting to blush.‘Oh god I do love him’ I think to myself. I get up and go inside. Gerard follows me. I look though my bag.
“What are you doing?” he asks me.
“I’m getting some money, I’m gonna buy myself a drink from the shop” I say.
“There’s heaps of drinks here,” he says.
“I wanna get a special drink,” I say.
“Can I come with?” he asks.
“Yeah I guess,” I say.
We walk out the door.
“We are going to the shops be right back” Gerard says.

We walk to the shops and we go inside and I look around at the drinks they have.
“What one are you looking for?” he asks.
“I can’t remember what it’s called but I know what it looks like, it’s like red and it’s a soft drink,” I say.
“Raspberry?” he asks.
“Nope” I reply.
“Ooo is it ummm CREAMING SODA?” he asks.
“Oh my god yes that’s it” I say.
He points to a drink. It’s creaming soda right in front of me geez I’m blind. I take it from the shelf and walk to the counter and pay for it.We walk out the shop.
“So umm Jacquie do you umm like me?” he asks kinda nervously.
“Well yeah as a friend” I say also nervously.We continue to walk in silence.
About halfway to Matt’s place he stops and pulls me into a hug and then he kisses me. I kiss back I couldn’t help it. He stops.
“So you do like me?” he says playfully.
“No, I just can’t resist a kiss” I say very unconvincing.
I try to pull away but he doesn’t let me and tries to kiss me again.
“Gerard no” I say even though I did want to kiss him.
“Come on I know you like it” he says. I finally break free of his grip.
“Your drunk, very drunk!” I yell at him.
I walk off quickly. Gerard follows.
“Jacquie, I’m sorry,” he says.
“Leave me alone” I yell to him.
“Jacquie I love you I’m sorry,” he yells.
“Lies” I say. I run off making my way past Matt’s without anyone there noticing and running to the park and sitting on the bench. I watch Gerard look around for me and then go into Matt’s. I begin to cry. I didn’t know he was like that I never saw it in him to be like that. I start to remember all the good times I’ve had with Gerard. Oh my god there was always that love spark. But I guess I was to blind to see it. Now it was too late I was leaving. I look over to Matt’s and everyone started walking out of the house obviously about to go searching for me. I rub tears away. I look my hands and see my make-up all over them. Great smudged make-up this is gonna look great trying to go home. I see Matt and Paula go walking my way. I duck from sight. They walk past the park and keep going. I hear Gerard calling my name. I try to ignore it but it gets too much and I begin to cry harder.Ray walks into the park. Oh crap he is gonna find me. Ray is looking around and then finally catches a glimpse of me and walks over. I make myself stop crying.
“You okay?” he asks quietly.
I nod.
“What happened?” he asks.
I sit up. And then Gerard sees me and comes over. I get up and walk off.
“Please Jacquie I’m sorry” he yells to me.
This catches everyone’s attention and everyone makes their way over.
I continue walking. Gerard follows. I begin running and go to the front of my place and get my skateboard. And I run back on the road and skate off. Gerard is still coming after me. I begin to cry again, Tears stream down my face. I hear Gerard stop running, I stop and look at him, He looks at me, I turn away and continue. I look over my shoulder to see him walk in the other direction. I stop and wait till he walks into the house. Everyone but Ray follows him he stays waiting for me to go by. I deicide to skate over to him either way he was gonna stop me. When I get to him I get off my board.
“Are you gonna tell me what happened or am I gonna wait till Gerard is sober?” he asks.
I nod.
“Well he kissed me and then he wouldn’t let me go and then he tried to kiss me again but I broke free,” I say.
“Oh” he says, “I’m guessing he is really regretting that”
“He doesn’t love me he just drunk,” I say even though I knew this was false, I knew I was trying to convince myself though.
“He loves you Jacquie he told us ages ago but he couldn’t get the courage to ask you” Ray replies.
“Whatever I’m going to bed I’ll be over in the morning to get my bag and I will say bye” I say “Bye for now”
“Bye” he says.
I walk off carrying my board. I walk into my house and go into my room. ‘Thank god everyone was asleep’ I think to myself as I look in the mirror and see my make up messed up.
I wipe it all off as much as I can. And just fall on my bed and try to sleep. I can’t sleep, I loved Gerard, I loved him all along. Now he’s done that I feel hurt. I realize my drink is still in the park. Damn that could of helped. My phone rings, Why the hell was it here I’m pretty sure it was in my bag at Matt’s.
I go to my phone as quickly as I can (Calling: Gerard). No way was I gonna answer it. I cancel the call. I start thinking about him but stop myself. Then I get a txt from him. It reads: Hey Jac, I’m really sorry, luv Gee. I start crying. I chuck my phone on the table and cry myself to sleep.