Chapter 22 – Can’t Stop Thinking About Her (Gerard’s POV)

I lay on my bed and wait till my alarm on my clock rings 7.30am. Clock finally goes off. I turn it off and sit up. I’m so tired I didn’t get any sleep cause I can’t stop thinking about her. What the hell am I to do? She hasn’t called me and I’m kinda worried.



I walk into the living room and find Mikey lying on the couch asleep.

“Mikey” I say trying to wake him.

“Gerard fuck off,” he says to me still sorta unconscious.

I push him off the couch.

“Man Gerard, You can’t ever let me have a good dream can you?” he yells at me.

“What about then?” I say with a smirk.

“Jac…” he say but trails off.

I look at him and start smiling.

“JACK” he says.

“You have been giving me a hard time all this time over Jacquie and you like her” I say.

“NO I SAID JACK” he says quickly and quite loudly.

“Are you gay then?” I ask with a laugh.

“NO” he yells.

“Shh, you're gonna wake mum gaybo” I say.

“Shut up, I’m not gay” Mikey says “And I only like Jacquie as a friend”.

“Sure sure” I reply and walk into the kitchen and I start making myself a coffee.

“Mikey wanna coffee” I ask.

“Yeah” he replies.

I hear footsteps coming into the living room.

“Morning mum, how are you?” I hear Mikey say.

“Morning, I’m alright” My mum says.

“Coffee Mum?” I ask

“Thanks darling” she replies.



I finish making the coffees and bring them out.

“Thanks” Mikey and my mum say.

I take my coffee and go in my room.

I sit on my bed and stare at my phone. I start taking sips of my coffee. I stop and look at my book of drawings, I go over to it and start flipping though till I find the one I did of Jacquie. It was pretty but not as pretty as Jacquie. I close the book and finish my coffee. I get my clothes out for school. Which was Black skinny jeans and shirt with a vampire on it. This shirt was one of Jacquie’s Favorites. I pick my clothes up and walk to the bathroom and place them on the vanity. I then have a shower.



After shower…

I get out and dry myself. I fix my hair up and put on my clothes. I take out the laundry and walk back in my room and get my stuff ready for school.

“Aww fuck” I hear Mikey yell.

I walk out and to Mikey’s room.

“What wrong Mikester?” I ask him.

“Fucken shirt is pink,” he says.

I look at the pink shirt he is holding.

“Isn’t that the shirt Jacquie likes of yours” I say to him.

“Yeah, well you're wearing the one she likes as well” he replies.

“Touché” I say to him.

He smiles.

I smile back at him.

“How about her other favorite?” I ask.

“Yeah I guess” he say throwing the pink shirt on his bed and walking over to his closet and looking through it, He pulls out another shirt, It has a skateboard on it.

I walk out and grab the now pink shirt.

I walk to mum.

“Can you make this white again?” I ask her.

“Yeah” she says taking it out of my hands “Isn’t this Mikey’s?”

“Yeah, Fix it for him” I say.

I walk into my room and get my bag.

“Bye” I yell to everyone.

“Bye” they reply.



I walk out the house and then I walk next door to Matt’s.I knock on the door.Matt opens it and closes it behind him.

“Hey” he says “Any word from Jac?”

“Nah, not yet” I say.

“Okay” he says.



We walk over to Ray’s. We find him talking to Lucy on his driveway.

“About time” he says jokingly.

“Hey” Lucy says.

“Hi” Matt replies.

“Yeah” I say.

“What’s up Gerard?” Ray asks me.

“Noth…” I say but am cut off by Matt

“He’s upset Jacquie hasn’t called him yet”.

“Oh” Ray says.

“I’m sure she will call soon” Lucy says.

“Okay” I say.We walk over to Paula’s.

Matt goes to knock on the door but Paula opens the door before he can.

“Hey honey” she says and kisses him.

“Hey” Matt replies and kisses her back.

“Hey everyone” she says.

“Hey” we all reply.



We walk off to school. I feel kinda left out since Paula and Matt were holding hands and so was Ray and Lucy.

‘Loner AGAIN’ I think to myself. When we arrive at school up comes Ryan as usual.

“Hey guys” he says.

“Fuck off” I say to him.

“What did I do … LONER?” he says obviously wanting me to bite back.

It worked “WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU JUST SAY?” I yell at him.

“I said what did I do…” he smirked “Loner?”

I glare at him and clench my fists.

“Gerard don’t dude this guy is a waste of time” Matt says.

“Loner Loner Loner” Ryan taunts.

“Fuck up Ryan” I say as calm as I could.

“L…O…N…E…R SPELLS loner” he says.

I drop my bag and walk up closer to him. He backs away a bit.

He smiles again

“What Jacquie not here because she couldn’t stand the sight of you?” he says.

“Gerard don’t bite okay” Ray says.

I take his advice in a way. I turn around and pick up my bag and walk out of the school.

“Gerard you gotta stop doing this” Matt yells to me as I walk off.

I stop and turn and look at him.

“Then let me bash this little fuck wit and I won’t go” I say.

“You know violence isn’t the answer Gerard” Ray says.

“Then what is?” I yell “Talking?”

“Yes it is” Ray replies.“You know Jacquie didn’t like violence, you know why she only used it when she was younger” Matt says.

“Whatever, Tell them I’m gonna be in later” I say and walk off. I ignore whatever they say and keep walking.



(Matts POV)

“Gerard come back” I yell to him.

He just keeps walking.

I turn to Ryan who was now looking at me.

“Why the fuck do you wind him up all the time?” I ask.

“Cause you guys won’t let me hang with you” he says.

“I wonder why?” Paula says sarcastically.

“Could you just leave us alone please?” I ask.

“Fine, I’ll get better friends and you’ll see I will be back on top of the school again” he says walking off.

I get out my phone and call Gerard.

I wait and then finally he answers.

“Dude come back” I say.

“I’ll be back around 2nd period okay” he says and hangs up.

“Okay apparently Gerard will be back around 2nd period” I say to everyone.

“Did he say what he was doing?” Lucy asks.

“Nope” I reply.

Bell rings.

“Okay see ya later” I say and we all walk to class.



2nd period… (Gerard POV)

I walk into Art class late.

“Sorry sir” I say to my art teacher.

“Okay Gerard go sit down” he says.

I sit right at the back where Jacquie and I use to sit. Jacquie’s little drawing of a skateboard was still there. I smile as I see it.

Kayley sits next to me.

“Heya Gerald” she says.

“Its Gerard” I say.

“Whatever, sorry about you and Jacquie” she says.

“What?” I ask surpised.

“I’m sorry about you scaring Jacquie off” she says with a laugh.

“I didn’t scare her off, Her mum wanted to live in Australia so she had no choice but to go” I say quite angrily.

“Yeah, Yeah sounds like that other girl all over again” she says rolling her eyes.

“Who did you get all this crap off?” I ask

“Ryan” she says.

“He is a liar” I say.

She gets up “whatever” she says and walks over to her friends again.

Ryan is really pissing me off now.



Lunch…

I walk over to our spot. Everyone is already there.

“You okay now Gerard?” Matt asks.

“Not really, Ryan has began spreading rumors” I say.

“Oh fuck no he is back to his tricks again” Matt says.

“Now can I bash him?” I ask.

Matt glares at me. Obviously a no.

“You can’t go around bashing people” Ray says “But you can have revenge” he says evilly.

“Yeah” I say.



(Jacquie’s POV) at 9am (6pm New Jersey)

I wake up and get some clothes out of my closet. And walk to the bathroom and have a shower. When I finish I dry myself and put my clothes on and take the laundry out. I walk into the living room.

“Morning Jacquie” Mark says.

“Morning where is mum?” I ask.

“She is asleep” he says “She told me to take you shopping is that okay?”

“Umm okay” I say.

I put on my chucks and Mark and I get into his car, He starts the engine and we drive off into the city. We go past heaps of shops. I smile as we go by a couple of what look to be Goth shops. OH MY GOD Australia likes Goths woo!



We arrive at a big shopping center and he parks the car and We both get out and go inside the shopping center.

“So what do you want to get first?” he asks.

“Phone!” I practically yell at him.

“Okay” he says taking me to a phone shop.

“Choose any phone” he says.

I look though the phones. I find a black one I really like.

“That one?” I ask “Oh wait that’s a bit expensive”

“Too late your getting it” he says “I’m paying no biggie”

“Okay” I say not really believing he was gonna such an expensive phone.

I walk out the shop with my brand new phone.

“Oh my god I can’t believe you got me this” I say to him.

“okay well we need to get you some credit for it” he says.

We go to a shop and he buys me $50 credit.

“$50 that’s heaps” I say to him.

“Really?” he asks “Think about all the credit you're gonna spend calling Gerard”

“I thought you didn’t like him?” I ask.

“Hey your mum doesn’t like him, but to me when I saw him he seemed very into you so I really don’t have a problem” he says.

“Aww thanks” I say really happy that he had accepted the fact I liked Gerard.

We continued shopping.



(Gerard’s POV again)

“Dude it’s alright I found out something that’s gonna put your mind to rest” Ray says.

“What?” I ask tensely.

“If you have a phone from America and you take it to Australia you can’t call on it or txt but you can still receive messages” He says.

“Really?” I ask happily.

“Yeah” he says.

“Okay” I say,

“Thank makes me feel better”.

I sit back and relax.



7pm New Jersey (10am Sydney) (still Gerard)

My phone rings.

We all look at it. (Calling: Unknown). I pick up the phone.

“Hello” I ask.

“Hey Gee Gee” Jacquie says.

“Oh my god Hi” I say really happy.

Everyone looks at me and smiles. I look at them as if to say what and then I walk outside.

“How are you?” she asks.

“I’m great now, What about you?” I ask.

“I’m super, Mark is really awesome he bought me my new phone and its like super expensive and he bought me clothes and OH MY GOD he likes you, But my mum doesn’t” she says.

“Cool well everything but your mum” I say “Why does Mark like me?”

“He reckons you're … nice or something he said that you looked like you were really into me or something,” she says with a laugh.

“Awesome” I reply.

“Yeah, It’s school holidays over here it’s kinda weird and OH MY GOD they like Goths well I think they do they seem to have a lot of goth shops” she say.

“Cool, What type of school?” I ask.

“It’s a performing arts school” she says with a sigh.

“What’s bad about that?” I ask.

“Umm hello snob’s much” she says.

“Don’t worry about it” I say.
“Meh I think I go to school next week or something” she says “Oh yeah and Mark is gonna get me a laptop”
“Awesome” I say.
“Clearly” she says and then giggles. Man how I missed her laugh.
“I miss you heaps” I say.
“Oh my god miss you heaps more” she says
I turn around and see everyone looking at me from the door.
I laugh.
“What you laughing at?” she asks.
“Matt and everyone are watching me talking to you” I say.
She laughs.
“Tell ‘em I said HI” she says.
I wave to everyone to come over. They walk over.
“Say hello” I whisper to everyone.
Everyone nods.
“Ready, set, GO” I yell
“HELLO” they yell into the phone.
“HI” I hear Jacquie yell and the laugh.
Everyone laughs.
I put the phone back to my ear and shoo everyone off. Everyone but Mikey leaves.
“So doing much?” she asks.
“Not really” I say. I shoo Mikey off again, He looks at me and then walks off.
“So” she says “OH yeah I got your surprise”
“Like it?” I ask.
“Nope” she says.
“Why?” I asked really surprised.
“I LOVED IT SILLY, I got it framed and it’s in my room on my desk” she says and then lets out a giggle.
I laugh too.
“Aww man I gotta go see ya Gee Gee OH MY GOD I love that nickname” she says.
I laugh.
“Well okay see ya” I say.
She hangs up.
I walk back in with probably one of the biggest smiles on my face. Everyone looks at me. I try to stop smiling but its worthless I can’t stop.
“So what happened lil’ Gee?” Matt asks.
“Nothing” I try to say making it sound normal but instead making it sound like a real big something.
“Your face doesn’t say that” Ray says.
“Okay” I say finally managing to stop smiling.
I sit down on the couch with everyone still looking at me.
“So what did you talk about?” Paula asks.
“Not much” I say and smile again, then stop myself.
Ray raises his eyebrow.
“I’m serious” I say.
“Yep sure lover boy” Lucy says.
Everyone laughs.
“Okay well I’m going back to my place Mikey wanna come over or stay?” I ask.
“I’m gonna come” Mikey replies.
“You don’t know how wrong that sounded” Matt says.
We all laugh and Mikey goes a little red.
“Bye” I say.

Mikey and I walk out and walk to our place. We go inside and he follows me into my room.
“What’s up Mikey?” I ask.
“How’s Jacquie?” he asks.
“She’s good” I say.
“Yeah, so umm what did you talk about?” Mikey asks.
“Umm not much, just random stuff” I say
“Okay” he says and walks out the room.
I shake my head, and go and continue with a drawing I was doing before and go to bed when I’m done.